Changes

Today has just been "one of those days"! I went to lunch with "a new old co-worker" (does that make sense???). My card got declined at lunch which was totally embarrassing! She had to pay for me! I KNOW there is $ in there but explaining to my friend and the waitress is pointless. You get that look of pity that is humiliating! I thought it was an error with their machine until my card got declined at the gas station & ATM! I made it all the way home from Santa Ana on fumes. Of course I hit every railroad crossing, red light & traffic jam on the way. My knuckles are still white! There is still no word on whether I got the job I've desperately been hoping for. They are making me jump through circus hoops! I had a phone interview, two face to face interviews, two tests and now they are requesting additional references other then the six I already gave them! They asked for a reference from a job I had in 1999! I could understand if this was an executive position! At this point I don't even want it but I will be forced to take it. Things would be so much easier if I was still working. I just couldn't stay at that hell hole for one more second! I can't even began to tell you what went on there. The place is a joke! I just can't understand how an organization claims to be "in the business of people" could be so heartless. Oh well...In a way I miss it there. Not the evil lady or the office politics...but my friends...and my daily routine. I'm in mourning. My life has changed so much in the last couple of months. I can't even keep up with all the change. I have to say that I love my new pad. It's happy & full of life. If this place is haunted it's haunted with peaceful, curious spirits. I love watering the grass in the afternoon & listening to the crickets at night. The other morning during the thunder storm I sat on the porch & enjoyed the view. It was so cool! This house called out to me because we were meant for it. We're happy here. I know we won't be here forever but I know there are many great things to come under it's roof. As promised I will update my Photo Album. Keep checking!

Heaven & Hell

After six wonderful days off I'm back to my cubicle hell. I was at work for 20 minutes before I got blamed for something completely out of my control. People are stressed & playing the "blame game". I heard that a few were annoyed because I took 3 days vacation (which I earned). Then I found out via Post-It that my desk was being moved. No explanation just a Post-It saying that I needed to move my stuff ASAP to the cubicle they orginally moved me from 6 months ago! It's a punishment of some sort I suppose. I don't even know what I did. I'm so stressed and feeling like the shy 2nd grader I once was in mean ol' Mrs. Kitashima's class. She thought she was helping us by being mean. A second grader should not feel that much anxiety & fear. I feel picked on like that again only I should be old enough to handle it. I should be. I feel like a child because this place is run by childish people. Being told to move desks via Post-It! That is hilarious!

Despite work hell...Home is heaven. I love the new house. It's the next best thing to owning our own place. I did some gardening...it was wonderful. I forgot how good the smell of wet dirt is! I love it! I love all the birds and the crickets at night. Our apartment was so stale and silent. We need a couple pictures for the walls & maybe a bookcase for my "art room" but other then that we're set. Stephen is starting his mini reef tank. I'm looking forward to helping him pick out fish! Pretty ones! I'll post pictures soon. I took some great pictures on the 4th of July. Stephen & I had a romantic BBQ just the two of us. After dinner we hiked up to Turnbull to watch the fireworks. We could see fireworks as far as Catalina. It was so awesome. It was my best 4th of July ever...just me & my sweetie on top of the world. I'll post pictures when I get home...although I just feel like going home & hiding under my covers.
xoxo